I have a large family, but the ones I talk to/about the most all have nicknames. This helps me keep track of who I’m referring to without revealing their real names for privacy reasons. I also have a boyfriend, so I will mention him as well. However, I will not disclose anything that is too private to share, as it should be kept confidential.

  • Changes in my Life 💔😇

    I have had so many changes. My adopted mom passed away on July 17, 2021, and my grandma died on February 5th, 2022. On the way to her funeral, I was in a car accident while in the funeral procession, going to lay my grandma to rest one final time. I had an anxiety attack that lasted what felt like a century. The friend who lived with me made my family feel unwelcome in our home over a misunderstanding. My boyfriend at the time moved out, broke up with me, disappeared, reappeared, got back with me, just to leave me under the false pretense of me being with my cousin. My Minnie Me had to move to Texas because, in the middle of breaking up with me, he also evicted all of us. She couldn’t find a place she could afford that would allow her two larger dogs. I just started living alone on June 1st, the first time basically ever. Still trying to figure things out day by day. I had to start taking edibles to sleep because I was dreaming of any of the nightmares that happened in real life, waking up with anxiety attacks. I only take a small amount so I can sleep through the night.

    Forgive the removal of all posts. I just needed a clean slate. I am now dating someone new (since my last post prior to the clean slate). We started dating on April 20, 2023, so it’s still fairly new (though we started talking on February 1, 2023). But I’m pretty happy with him. I’m unsure of how much he’d want me to share, so I’m gonna hold off on sharing anything else. I wouldn’t post anything that’s too personal either because, well… boundaries do, in fact, exist.

    I am now just managing my anxiety and depression as best I can while still working at Subway, which is the only stability I have right now, to be honest. I am now in the process of trying to get back into teaching, since I have my degree in it. It’s just a matter of someone giving me a chance after six years out of the classroom. I really want an opportunity to not only show them, but also myself, that I still have what it takes. I’ve been working on proving to myself that I can do the things I want to do. Right now, I am genuinely happy. There are parts of my life that I’m not excited about, but overall, I’m pretty happy. I’ve been living alone for a year, losing weight at a healthy pace (without being on a strict diet), and my depression is mostly in check (although I still have my bad days, like everyone does). I also have tools to help me manage my anxiety effectively.

  • My Future Tattoo

    What tattoo do you want and where would you put it?

    I want a tattoo in honor of my nephew who passed as well as one in honor of my grandma who recently passed s as well. Just haven’t decided on the design or the location.

  • Life’s Craziness

    So much has happened and changed since my last post. Still with the same guy. I did get a teaching job but even some of that has changed. I do love that job too. Still living alone and independently which I fully love just other minor things have changed like I got some new stuff for my place I am writing this on my iPad which I’ve wanted one for so many years.

    What hasn’t changed is my resilience because I’ve been thru some things ok. I could write a book on so much from my childhood to my Subway stories (rude customers and the like) and I honestly am surprised that not only do I just keep going, but I find ways to laugh about the different things as well as simply laughing at my own stupidity. Thinking back on all the people that I’ve trusted when I shouldn’t have and the people that I had in my circle that some would call two faced and petty (I’m sure amongst other things). Yet I’m still here doing what I love and working two jobs (Subway still on the weekends) to make sure these bills are paid and I will never ask for anyone’s help ever again. Been told way too many times that I use people. No interest in any of that whatsoever.

    I’m still patient I’m still the person I am proud to be but I just had to come to a point like respect me or just get on with your life without me cause this isn’t ok when you’re out here disrespecting me. Been walked all over so much of my life. Recently found out that someone close to me was telling my ex friend just everything about me. Like why? They an aren’t in my life I made it a point to tell everyone. So now I plan to tell them stuff I’m good with the other person finding out. Which is close to nothing.

    Alright I guess I just needed to vent but I’m thinking on posting my funniest subway stories. Thoughts? Let’s just say people can be so rude and all this over a sandwich?! Just don’t get it.

  • Job Update!

    So I applied for a teaching job, went to true interview and got hired. That’s was the fastest I’ve ever gotten a job I figured I’d get turned down for a few jobs.

    I have my portfolio with all of my qualifications and my degree and references that I brought with me then left with them so the Director could see it all. I was fingerprinted and as soon as the results come back (clean as a whistle) I can start.

    I’m just excited to be back in the classroom. My first day in the classroom is 8/5/23. I can’t wait. I just gotta kinda relearn how things go (as a refresher is all).

    I can’t post about where it’s at, nor say too much personal about anyone I work with. I can tell a silly story as long as I don’t give names. I will not even post my location. In any case I’ll always talk respectfully about my job and anyone that I work with. Will probably just say coworker, young one, or boss.